I like these words. I like that they are not just rhyming words. They mean something. They are a reminder to me. Of my friend. For a really long time I thought that as the days advanced it would just naturally be easier. That it wouldn't seem as bad. It's not quite how I imagined it. It definitely has not been easier, but it has been different. My life has in fact been different than before. I've uncovered and gotten familiar with some weaknesses. But, I've also become hopeful. I've been challenged. I've been loved and encouraged.
Rob has encouraged me to figure out where to invest. What's important? Where can I love? Where can I be loved? What kind of legacy do I want to invest in? I've come to understand that it's about relationship. We are called to be in relationships with one another. We are called to love each other. Invest our love. Invest our lives. What if that's what we did? I hope you do not think I'm crazy. I'm just kind of fascinated by this.
What if we had no fear? What if we just had grace in our hearts? What if we loved with no fear? What if we stepped into who God calls us to be and do what God calls us to do?
Don't get me wrong. I still have questions. I just don't know how to ask them. Or who to ask. I still have doubts. But, like I've said before, I still have this hope. This hope that doesn't seem to leave. This hope that, deep down, makes it all ok. It's late and I'm tired. Not sure this all makes sense, but here you go anyways...