I don't have a lot to report on this Sunday night, but I just wanted to say you should listen to this: http://www.wearestandrews.com/userfiles/files/Sermon_Files/July-Sep2010/2010_0808_God_Sends.mp3
Also I am on a serious musical/songwriting kick right now. Loving it. My roommates are probably hating it. Oh well. Can't please everybody. I absolutely love playing my guitar. To the point of playing too much, but we can't all be perfect.
This is dangerous, but I have been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. I am in no way complaining when I say this, but there is a lot of stuff I want to do. Like volunteer more, go more places, I want to go to Africa..maybe, do more things that are completely out of my comfort zone, try new things, work harder, be nicer (in general), and just simplify. I want to lead a simple life. Is that weird? I have no idea exactly what all of this means, but it all constantly dominates my daily thoughts. And it's not that I don't like what I am doing. I love it. I LOVE where I live and who I live with. Sometimes I just wonder what I am really doing? I don't want to get stuck just going through the motions and get trapped in a routine. Or maybe I am about to enter a quarter life crisis. I think a part of this is because summer is slowly winding down and routine and scheduling is upon us. I used to just do things to do them and bc I had a serious problem saying no to things. I get overwhelmed with things and relationships become unmanageable. This may sound weird to you, I'm not sure-but I feel like I failed at a lot of relationships. Some of it was because I had to wear big girl pants and work so I couldn't do my usual hanging out all day long. But I found that the days seemed to fly by and then the days became weeks and so on. And I was making new friends, but was missing old ones etc...I could not find a balance. However, I did learn a ton this year so it wasn't all bad..This year is going to be different for me. I am going to intentionally pick what I am going to do and not do. Like I have been agonizing about this whole City Church thing. For the wrong reason. So many people I love are going to help out. For weeks I have been trying to decide what I was doing. Then being me-I tried to figure how I could do both. DUMB. All along I knew I wasn't supposed to do it, but I didn't want to miss out..so TYPICAL. I am excited to say that I am going to help hold down the fort in Mt. Perfect. I am really pumped about this lil decision. That is just a side note. I am going to be more intentional in with my friends. On that note, I am so excited to have Logan back in this beautiful state. And I am so so excited to have Beth back in Charleston. Moving on. I think Cassie would be pretty excited about this posting because she has basically spent 2 years trying to teach us all about margin, boundaries and saying no, but she will probably never read this. Basically things are going to be different this year. I know I tell myself this pretty much every year, but I am serious. And now I have written it on here. To you. I can't not give it a go knowing you have read this. Not sure who you actually is, but that is neither here nor there. Basically you are holding me accountable to this. So don't fail....
Ok. I have bored you enough with these ramblings. I hope you have a delightful night. I have a candle lit and am going to try and finish Glass Castle tonight. Good night.
Currently playing on repeat: "ten thousand" by John Mark McMillan.