So last night I finished up my time at the Senf's. I was a lil sad to leave because we had so much fun. Although I will not miss waking up at 5:50 am. I have a whole new respect for moms. Dang. On my way out of the hood I stopped buy the Grady's. Which always leads to good convo's. We were just catching up on a plethora of things. Somehow we got on the spiritual track and one little question has now not only perplexed me and intrigued me, but it has challenged me 100%. While I was giving Sherri the low down on my house hunting, I mentioned that I wasn't 100% positive on my trust level with God throughout this whole process. In fact, I had come to the conclusion that if I wasn't just doing everything, then nothing would work out (classic, I can do it all thinking). Basically, the world would end if I gave it over to God.... Just throwing that out there. So here is what she says (if I remember correctly): "So, which part of the God head are you closest to? (I immediately was shocked. I'm sure I displayed a lovely facial expression) (Good thing she is used to that). Like which one am I better friends with? Uh.. Well, I'm feeling that I have been on team Holy Spirit for a while. Yeah. That sounds right. I feel like I have just been going after the Holy Spirit. I may have neglected the others. Sorry, I'm laughing at myself as I write this. Just based on how much my life has drastically changed in the last 2 years... Okay, so go team Holy Spirit. Then she says: "So why don't you ask the Holy Spirit where you have a trust issue? Is it with God the Father or Jesus? Insert another facial expression. Hold up. I can ask them separately? I just took me like 3 years to understand that the three are actually one. Now I'm supposed to break them up again?? Oh gosh. So on this whole Holy Spirit escapade/journey that I have been on- I have completely forgotten the fact that there is God the Father, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. I have just been lumping them up together. Like when I pray I just assume it goes into a prayer vacuum and hits all three at once. Kill 3 birds with 1 stone? Oh geez. I was seriously sitting there, feeling like the biggest dingle dong. How have I never once thought about this?????? Hello? Mcfly? So I left there feeling super excited about a challenge. Normally I avoid challenge like a champion. I am basically going to go back and chill with God the Father and Jesus. So now you may be thinking that I am a looney tune. I promise I'm not (Well who knows really). I actually think I'm fairly normal. But, who can confirm or deny that? I'm pretty excited about this. I have been feeling fairly stagnant spiritually. Not that I haven't been learning a ton, but that I didn't feel fully connected. Maybe that's because I ditched 2/3rd's of the Trinity... Chelloooo. HAHAHA. Sorry, I'm still cracking myself up over here. So here we go. I am going to figure this thing out. And for the first time- I'm not petrified. I am excited. I think this could be cool. Plus, now I just gained an AWESOME question to throw at people...
Hope we are still friends,
Run and tell that,