I have also thought about it in a deeper way. Sometimes its a lot easier for me to be vulnerable with a dear friend and maybe not so much with God. Even though God knows it all, I tend to be less communicative. And I think it has to do with control. I also think it has to do with fear. And then I got to thinking, have I truly given God my heart? Have you? I am not sure, but I'm definitely going to be thinking about this a whole lot more. I know the fears I have and the trust that I lack. It's a vulnerable deal. It's like a giant pile of vulnerability ( lots of times I don't want to step in it.)... How does one even actually walk this out? I'm not sure. But, I have a feeling I will be finding out... Like it or not.
I came across a Psalm that really struck me. Being in relationship with God and each other is life. Out of relationship with God and each other is death. Sometimes I feel like its too easy to have one foot in each. Sometimes I don't feel like I have the power or even the want to always choose life. Frankly, its harder and messier. But, we were created for life. We were made to be in relationship with God and with each other. From the very beginning we were made to be vulnerable and to do life together. I think that is extremely hard sometimes and frankly, I don't feel equipped to do it. Luckily, for us, we don't have to be. Please don't get me wrong, I rarely do this correctly (my people have to re direct me often). I read this Psalm and it just got me. I want to be in the land of the living. ALWAYS. FOREVER. I know that I have and do see the love of God through other people. 100%. It is the most evident to me through people that love me and walk alongside me. They risk it. They are vulnerable and they are loving. They are the land of the living and they are all in. They are in relationship with Christ and they are loving me. The more loved that we know that we are, the bolder and more confident we will be. And I think that is where I find the Lord. Check it out. Love to you all.