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Monday, May 14, 2012

Letters to this editor

Sorry for the delay.  Usually, I can sit down at the computer and spout out some blogs left and write.  I don't know what's happened to me.  I'm not sure what's going on, but thinkgs have been crazier than normal.   So I need to articulate some things to myself.  Yes, that is correct. I'm now going to attempt to write a small little letter to myself... (Just stop reading if you already think I am cray cray- below will not change your opinion..)

Dear ridiculously cool, smart, responsible and genious self (had to be funny at least once... my only defense mechanism here),

Well it's been a while.  I've have been very distracted.  I sold my beloved tahoe, optimus prime.  Maybe I cried a little when he drove away... Now I drive the coolest mom car on the road.  A volvo wagon...   Swaggin or white lightening.  Almost as cool.  The car search consumed me.  Craigslist continues to waste loads of my time at work.  I should probably nip that one in the bud.  I've been a little behind at work and it has been a real you know what to try and catch up.  I have 14 more hours of continuing ed to get in before June and then 75 more hours until I can graduate this dang apprenticeship.  I absolutely hate spending money to go sit in class for 8 hours.  Geesh.  Work was going pretty well, but now I feel like I have hit a little bit of a stagnant place.  Actually- the stagnant bit is not limited to work.  It has slithered its way into several areas... It's decided to play house spiritually...  One week I'm doing good and then the next I'm back in the rut.  I have been making a nice home in the spiritual rut lately.  Decided to occupy.  I don't know if it's just because I'm worn out and the year is ending or what.  I have been lacking major motivation.  I get to be a part of all of this cool stuff.  In more of a team/community setting and then I basically am doing jack on my own.  Seriously.  I just opened Jesus Calling and the last day I read it was March 2nd.  I've learned about having a full cup about 39471,04385879 times.  Guess what?  I think the cup has a hole in it the size of Texas.  Gah.  Worst part is- I don't know how to fix it.  I hate repeating the same ol same ol.  It's not like I don't have awesome people walking along side me, but something's up.  It's weird, some days I feel like I have a zillion best friends and then some days I'm a lone ranger. Sorry- I'm not trying to be depressing...  Plus I'm getting a little sad bc some of my favorite high school friends are getting ready to graduate.  Man what I wouldn't give to get to have college again.  They have no idea what they are in for.  Okay, that's enough for today...


PS- news just said Mitchell from swamp people died.  Sad.

1 comment:

  1. I think this post legit embodies what it's like to have a quarter life crisis. from craigslist to jesus, this is pretty much what we're all feeling, i think?